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The flame
Journal Entry – October 30, 1871 The eye no longer sleeps. It watches even when the candle burns out. This morning, I found the pouch on the windowsill, though I swear I left it beneath the floorboards. The coins lay arranged in a perfect circle — every mark facing inward, all but one. The half-eye glared up at me, the etched pupil now darkened with something that wasn’t shadow. When I blinked, it gleamed wetly, as though freshly carved. The mirror across the room fogged, tho

Kate Bender
Oct 31, 20251 min read


The leather purse
Journal Entry – October 29, 1871 The coins are fewer tonight. I counted them again by candlelight — six where there should have been seven. One gone, without sound or thief. Only a faint hollow on the bar where it once lay, as if the wood itself remembered the weight. Baxter Adams stopped by this afternoon, sleeves rolled and jaw tight. He said he’d heard something strange near the hotel before sunrise — metal against earth, like someone working a shovel in wet clay. He tried

Kate Bender
Oct 30, 20252 min read


The payment
Journal Entry – October 28, 1871 The last of the men stumbled out with the rain, leaving only the echo of their laughter and the stale perfume of whiskey. I wiped down the bar in silence, watching the candle burn low, the wick curling like a dying thing. The storm outside had softened to a whisper, but the air inside still trembled — as if waiting. That’s when he arrived. Not the stranger — not quite. This one wore the look of a man carrying someone else’s message. His hat dr

Kate Bender
Oct 29, 20252 min read


Ripples in the mirror II
Journal Entry – October 27, 1871 He speaks now. Not through sound — through suggestion. Words that bloom inside my mind like smoke. I can feel them settle behind my eyes before I understand their meaning. Last night, the mirror shuddered in its frame, and the frost receded — not melting, but retreating, as if something on the other side no longer needed to hide. His outline stood sharper than ever, and when I reached toward him, the surface gave way like water. He asked for

Kate Bender
Oct 28, 20251 min read


Ripples in the mirror
Journal Entry – October 20, 1871 Sleep refused me again. When I finally drifted off, I woke to find the clasp not on the table where I left it, but on the pillow beside me — open, the lining pulsing faintly as if something beneath it breathed. The mark on my palm glowed like it remembered his touch. I can hear him when the room goes still. Not footsteps, not breath — but something quieter, threaded into the hum of the walls, as though the wood itself repeats his name. Every t

Kate Bender
Oct 24, 20252 min read


The Gift and the Stranger
Journal Entry – October 19, 1871 He’s back. I knew it the moment the lamplight dimmed without warning, as if the flame itself bowed to an unseen hand. The air changed — thickened — and the scent of rain-soaked wool crept through the cracks of my door. That same scent from the night of the storm. The stranger. I found him standing in the hallway outside my room, hat in hand, eyes like river stones — smooth, unreadable, reflecting nothing. He said he’d left something behind. I

Kate Bender
Oct 23, 20252 min read


The Whisper Beneath the Floorboards
Journal Entry – October 20, 1871 Cherryvale, Kansas The wind woke me before dawn, a thin, reedy whine slipping through the cracks like a voice searching for shape. The room was still — too still — and for a moment I thought it was only the storm returning. But the sound was coming from beneath the floor. A whisper. Soft. Threaded with breath. It rose and fell like someone murmuring through cloth — words just beyond comprehension. I lit the lamp and watched the shadows crawl a

Kate Bender
Oct 22, 20251 min read


The gift that keeps giving
Journal Entry – October 21, 1871 (The Whisper and the Mark) The clasp will not quiet. I found it again this morning where I’d left it—on the small table near the window—but the light from the curtain made it shimmer like something alive. I reached for it without thinking. The moment my skin met the metal, the mark on my palm answered. A soft heat first, then a pulse, as though the two shared a single breath. It isn’t just a trinket. It’s listening. When I close my hand around

Kate Bender
Oct 21, 20251 min read


The Gift
Journal Entry – October 19, 1871 The man from the storm left this morning, though I could still smell the rain on him long after he’d gone. He said little — men rarely do when they fear what they can’t name. But I watched his hands as he packed. They shook, just enough for truth to tremble through his calm. When he settled his account, he placed a small leather pouch on the counter instead of coin. I knew before I opened it that it wasn’t payment in any honest sense. Inside w

Kate Bender
Oct 20, 20251 min read


The Storm and the Stranger III
Journal Entry – October 17, 1871 The book no longer hums — it breathes. When I touched it last night, the air in the room thickened, as though every shadow leaned closer to listen. The candlelight wavered, but not from any draft I could feel. I spoke aloud, softly at first, words that were not my own but came unbidden — syllables that curled and folded like smoke. The room seemed to answer. The flame stilled. The hum deepened, slower now, pulsing beneath my skin rather than t

Kate Bender
Oct 18, 20251 min read


The Storm and the Stranger II
Journal Entry – October 14, 1871 I waited until morning to touch it. The satchel sat on the bar all night, untouched, though I could feel it watching me. Every so often it let out the faintest hum — not a sound exactly, but a pressure, like when thunder rolls far away and the air forgets how to breathe. At dawn, I unlatched it. Inside was only a small bundle wrapped in oilcloth, bound tight with black twine. The knot was perfect, deliberate. I almost didn’t want to break it.

Kate Bender
Oct 17, 20251 min read


The Storm and the Stranger
Journal Entry – October 13, 1871 The storm came without warning — no wind, no scent of rain to herald it. One moment the air was still, and the next it was trembling. I had been closing the shutters at the hotel when the first bolt struck, white and clean, splitting the sky in two. The thunder that followed rattled the bottles behind the bar and made the lamps flicker like they feared the dark. By the time the stranger arrived, every man inside had turned his chair toward the

Kate Bender
Oct 16, 20252 min read


Cherryvale, Kansas
Journal Entry – October 10, 1871 My first day behind the bar has proven more revealing than I expected. The men here drink like it’s...

Kate Bender
Oct 9, 20251 min read


Cherryvale, Kansas
Journal Entry – October 9, 1871 The road into Cherryvale is little more than a vein of mud and clay, slick from last night’s rain. I...

Kate Bender
Oct 8, 20252 min read


Bender Inn - interior
Journal Entry – October 1, 1871 Location: Bender Inn Interior The lavender in the air does little to cover the coppery edge clinging to...

Kate Bender
Oct 4, 20251 min read


Approaching Parsons
Journal Entry – October 01, 1871 The dining room was bathed in golden lamplight, soft enough to make even the plainest of company seem...

Kate Bender
Oct 2, 20252 min read


Kansas Depot
September 30, 1871 The wind has a voice tonight—low and sharp, like a blade whispering through the grass. It carries the scent of...

Kate Bender
Oct 1, 20251 min read


Westbound Train to Kansas
September 29, 1871 The whistle blew long before dawn, echoing through the valleys like a warning lost to time. I hadn’t slept. Instead, I...

Kate Bender
Sep 30, 20251 min read


Near Jefferson City, Missouri
September 27, 1871 The dining car swayed like a slow waltz, brass lamps throwing soft halos across polished silver and the dark glass of...

Kate Bender
Sep 29, 20252 min read


Pacific, Missouri
September 26, 1871 We’re close now—I can feel it. The line between sleep and waking grows thinner each night. I keep drifting into...

Kate Bender
Sep 27, 20251 min read
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